Silmät auki, silmät kii

Silmät auki, silmät kii,

Oi katso sitä, 

sil tulee olee viel paljon unelmii. 

Ruokaa sieltä, ruokaa täältä.

Onpa se söpö.

Ei itse saa edes paitaa pois päältä.

Kokonaisuuksii alkoi hahmottaa

-Ai mulla on otsatukka, katos vaan.-

Viattomuus suojassa kuin vakan alla

Sitä tiedostamatta varjeli,

Sotilas vieraalla rintamalla.

Ei omena kauaksi puusta putoa

Nuoruuden herkkyyttä, itsepäistä uhoa.

Valheet maailman tuhota voi

Itsekkyys on itsenäisyyttä, itsenäisyys on hyvä...

Korvissa

soi

-Ei unelmat ihmistä paremmaks tee,

Lokeroidaan, 

niin päästään pätee.-

Kaipuu siis tukahduta jo,

tieto on tiedettä,

tule hyvä tiedon jano. 

Samat

valheet

korvissa 

soi

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Kaunis ruukku vahvoissa käsissä.

Muotoilla Hän vapaasti saa,

vaikka rikkoo

tiedän Hän sen taas kokoaa.

Be calm

Your love and grace is overwhelming.

You show me just what I need

to be able to breathe again.

You gently guide me

when I'm lost.

The waters may rise quick,

and for a while I may be scared of it.

O Lord, sometimes I forget

You're already there.

Here, have some light.

Some of you may know this,

For some it's a surprise.

Circumstances won't make you happy

Stop waiting for "your time."

You may struggle today

Maybe even lost hope

Of the 

Brighter

future

"After darkness,

the light just shines that much brighter?"

The beauty

is in seeing the light 

in the darkness. 

Life may give you

this and that

Make it stop. "Life is crap"?

We either learn something from the struggle,
or choose to feel sorry for ourselves.

Pity me.

Pity me.

Feel good?

Beauty is in being able to trust

Shine a light,

even when there is no end

for the human eye to see.

The strength is not my own,

for the Lord strengthens me.

He leads me to a place I can rest,

because no matter what 

I do,

He has done it all.

Työmatka

Just nyt ihanaa on se, että saa hymyillä.

Just nyt ihanaa on se, että kaikkeen ei oo vastausta. 

Just nyt ihanaa on se, että kotona on joku jota rakastaa,

ihanaa se, miten viileä ilma purasee poskesta aamulla ennen seitsemää,

ennen se pussasi.

Ei ole kiire junaan, seuraavaan kyllä ehdottomasti ehtii,

jos edellisestä myöhästyy.

Ilo on siinä, kun saa aamulla pyöräillä alamäkeen.

Ilo on siinä, että mies pumppaa pyörän kumit 

että pääsee kulkemaan.

Hymy on paras pahja vieraalta

Helsingin keskustassa.

Viisautta on tutkia, viisautta on kuunnella,

joskus olla vain hiljaa.

On helppo sanoa että on oikeassa,

mutta joskus merkinkantajakin kulkee väärään suuntaan.

Just nyt ihanaa on se,

että junassa on ikkunat,

ja ihmisä voi ihan salaa vähän tarkkailla.

Toinen sulkee silmät keskittyäkseen ehkä musiikkiin,

toinen tumppaa tupakan.

Yksi vetää äitään hihasta, toinen tervehtii iloisena ystävää.

Just nyt ihanaa on se, että pian saa olla kotona.

Onnellisuus ei vain ole, se valitaan.

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Tell me your future - now.

I bought a camera!!! Nikon d3000 if you must know, old model but good enough for me for now. Muahah.
I have eaten loads of food today and it makes my belly happy. Food is good.

Anyway, let's get down to a very current ''issue'' what has been appearing at this age for many people. People often tend to ask questions like "What are your plans for the future?" or "What do you wanna become?".

It's normal, we all do it. I do it? It's called curiosity (or just being polite).

This question might raise strong feelings in the person who is still unsure about what they want to become, and hence feel pressure to decide. I know those people. I struggled with that for quite sometime also. Not only is that enough, but in today's society, you seem to need to work really hard whatever it is that you're doing. -------Keep busy. ---------Look like you know what you're doing.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that this day and age is all about planning out your life, knowing where you stand next year, what you study and eventually work for, where you're going to live. As a person who depends my life on God's hands, I find it amazingly interesting to know what's happening next. Let me take you through a small glimpse of my life at the moment.

~I know absolutely nothing about my life. Am I frustrated? I was. Not anymore. I sort of know what I want to study, I didn't get in last year, I do not know about this year (for people reading this outside of Finland, Uni here is free, but you can just imagine the applicants per year compared to the amount who get in). I do not have a plan B, although I have tried mapping it out.
I was supposed to move to my own apartment, and I was greatly excited, but that turned out to not happen. The reason I wanted to move out is that I want to get on my own feet,and be close to my church. Plus the apartment which I would've gone to is a.m.a.z.i.n.g. So that's that. For about two-three months I was kind of one foot out of my home, the other still holding back.
Thirdly, I had to make a big decision about my workplace. Balancing out what would be the rational and right thing to do, turns out the right thing may not always be the rational one.

Bottom line being, I am so glad I don't have to do this on my own. I would go nuts. I was frustrated with God about this waiting, but I now have great peace about my future.
So no, I have no idea what's going to happen. I have no idea where I'll find myself, but hey, that's the exciting part! God's plan is always, always the best one. He definitely isn't a judging God out there, but a father who has given me my talents, desires and dreams.  I might not be able to see why all of this has happened and is happening, but I have never seen God fail me, and he won't fail me now.

Peace.

I feel so alive

~

Taking his hand when mine's cold and his is warm,

Not only feeling the coldness of the weather, but smelling it.

The fall's come, and the colors of nature may finally bloom.

Leaves fall, which isn't what I really look forward to during the year.

Today it seems alright.

The feeling of a cool breeze usually seems depressing, I know summer's over,

but today it's refreshing. 

The freedom of a brush stroke following the unknown paths,

discovering new colors, as they mix together creating a piece that you couldn't plan out. 

Inspiration, welcome back.

The drop-down bass beating through my head taking me to another world,

mixed with memories, fingers running down his head. My head.

Looking into his eyes just a little longer than I'd normally dare to,

finding joy in a cup of hot chocolate.

Paying attention to the little details in the middle of fog,

only wishing they could be captured.

Dreaming for a second, 

to be able to stop time from running.

Daring to take a leap of faith, 

trusting my Father, remaining sensitive to 

His voice.

As cliche as the following will sound,

cliche's have only got their reputation due to their

truthfulness that's been proved 

over and over again,

 over time. 

Relationships are to be valued, 

Food is to be tasted, and

Music is to be felt.

~

I feel so alive.

~

Rest in peace

<3

I feel blessed, I truly feel priviledged.Why? I had the opportunity to get to know all of my four grandparents up to the age of just almost 19... I always wondered what this would feel like. 

Four is now down to three. 

My grandfather, my mother’s dad, will be missed, never knew him as well as I wished, I guess you always run out of time. Some say death is the end of it all, but I believe different, which gives me confidence, that some day I'll see him again. 

You can never have too many people that you know you care for, and people who care back. Though then you have more to let go of. It’s such a cliché, but life should be made the most of while we’re here. 

Especially, please pay attention to the people around you; make sure they know how you feel about them.We can never tell another person how much we care for them too many times.

Rest in peace Grandfather, I love you.